a long day

Few days ago, a friend needed read something ‘cool’ in his company (they have something like ‘time to read and think/talk about’ a time per week), so I sent this (that I like very much) to him:

“Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything ??? all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart. (Steve Jobs) “

Today I’m thinking about this… Why? hummm… last night, the sister of this friend died, too fast, without time for save her, her heart stopped. Almost one year ago (26.jan.2006), died too a very close friend mine. Both so young, so suddenly. When Marcelo died I realize that I never said to him how much he was special in my life, he and his brothers and parents did ‘save me’ in the worst years of my life. I could’t tell to him, but I did it to his brothers at least. After that I thought that I could’t let this happen again. I did this for a time, with some friends and family, but now I almost don’t do this anymore… few people really know about my feelings for them. Why?? Maybe I had forget how this is important for them and for me, maybe fear for love someone and don’t be loved, for don’t be important, fear of stay, fear of run away… owww! If I think in dead, all this things really fall! It’s dangerous… ;o) I’m talking about many things at same time, thinking in many others, I’m tired, sleepy and sad, I need rest…

p.s. Best wishes for you, Sky, and your family, I know that you have so much love for each others, and now, only this love can fix their lives.

I’m going to my bed…zzzZZZzzzz…bye